Suicide doesn’t end the pain. It just transfers it to other people. And I can attest to that the pain never goes away. You just get better at living with it.
It’s like suddenly a behemoth, scary, grotesque monster moves into your house and won’t ever leave, forever. So you just get used to the big blobby thing and live with it. You learn to talk with it, hear it out, sob your guts out with it, maybe even help it heal – slowly, be just a little less monstery…..But at the end of the day, no matter what you ever do, there’s still a giant fucking monster in your house.
There’s still this big ol’ cumbersome thing taking up all that space, making messes, and causing some people to run in the opposite direction from you. No matter how well you learn to deal with it, it’s still always going to be something to manage. Forever.
Please don’t be afraid to reach out for help. Making people you love live with that monster is way, WAY scarier.
National Suicide Hotline: 1-800-273-8255 ☎️
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